In a mode that was far too demanding for my age or experience, I loved her. I had made her what she was, and in such circumstances I must hate her or love her.

Furthermore, I felt myself tied to her by the certainty that I was responsible for her straying wits, the disorder of her marriage, and the frail body of the child who was her great delight in life. Not as some boys are in love with grown-up women, adoring them from afar and enjoying a fantasy life in which the older woman figures in an idealized form, but in a painful and immediate fashion I saw her every day, I did menial tasks in her house, and I was charged to watch her and keep her from doing foolish things. But, looking back on it now, I know that I was in love with Mrs Dempster. Dunstan enjoys writing the Autobiography of Magnus Eisengrim, because there is no obligation to be historically. I thought I was in love with Leola, by which I meant that if I could have found her in a quiet corner, and if I had been certain that no one would ever find out, and if I could have summoned up the courage at the right moment, I would have kissed her. Fifth Business: Part 6 Summary & Analysis 1.

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